Its taking a toll

Its beginning to take a toll on everyone. I'm running on minimal sleep. Gripping my phone the few hours i do sleep. So scared to miss a call. Getting used to doing everything on my own again is exhausting. My eyes are tired but my body feels like there is so much more to do. The poor babies are just so confused and lost. They have been cranky throughout the day and Jake has had trouble sleeping the past two nights. I just want to scream and cry all at the same time. I just wish i could hear his voice, see his face, read his words. I know he is at work and has a job to do but i find myself wishing i was somewhere in the job description. So here's to hoping i fall fast asleep before the second showing of Oprah airs.