With this upcoming seperation...

With our upcoming year long seperation of course lots of scary, uneasy, negative thoughts are crossing my mind constantly. So tonight i decided to stop and think about some of the positive things that times like these have brought me in the past.

I loved the feeling of getting butterflies every time i saw his number pop up through out basic. It was that rush of when you are first dating. Just to hear his voice no matter what he was saying. Its gives me goosebumps just thinking about it now. Sending pictures and letters. The actual handwritten kind :) was such a great way to stay connected and even learn new things about each other.

Going to his graduation from basic was such a proud moment. Seeing something he had worked so hard at..in action..in uniform. It was so moving. Seeing the smile on alexias face when she saw him. You could tell she was proud also. I held him and never wanted to let go. That simple hug brought our marriage to a whole new level. We had survived obstacle number one.




Onto AIT we go..Good ole Fort Lee Virginia. This move was great for us because that means we actually got to visit him!!! Although the 12 hour drive was stressful, long, and tiring the anticipation and excitement outweighed those! And on top of all these emotions i was also nervous. Nervous that the same bond wouldnt be there. Nervous i didnt look my best. Just overall NERVOUS. As soon as i saw his smile i knew that none of those things were an issue. Everything was exactly the same and even better. I remember one of the few trips up there. Arriving bright and early friday morning. Sad that i wouldnt be able to see him until Saturday morning. Being myself i could not wait. So what is one to do when you cannot do something until the next day but want to do it that day. Do the words spy, campout, look like a fool come to your mind? They came to mine! So thats what i did. Parked across the street from his school. Watched his bus pull up. Slowly and nonchalantly pulled into the parking lot(with sunglasses on and ducted down as far as i could) Got a good upfront spot. And waited. Off his bus and into the building he marched. Allllll that work for those 5 seconds of seeing him march. SOO worth it. Ill never forget moments like those. Moments where my inner child came out. While my own children are in the back seat oblivious to how silly their mommy is being.

Me and Chelsea's SOOOO excited face!


Watching his bus pull up :)


Alexia and Daddy)


Jake and Daddy


So as sad as i am about him leaving for a whole year, I must remember these times and feelings. Weve survived it before and we will survive it again. Hopefully coming out closer and stronger than we were the year before. Its going to be tough but im prepared to be tougher.